Yesterday on the way to church we were discussing as a family how thankful we are for God’s goodness in our lives and started listing off everything we have to be thankful for. We often do this on our way to church.
Our life is such a miracle, its something you just don’t forget. I know they say there is always someone who has had it worse than you and I’m sure somehow that is true. But, I have yet to meet a couple that were as bad off as we were. That’s the truth!
I was remembering the days when I would drive to church with Darin. He was so disconnected to me and disconnected to God. I remember him being in church physically, just standing there. I would look at him from the platform as I led worship and could tell his heart was not there, something changed, something happened and I did not know how to get it back.
I also remember sitting in church and leaning down to pick up my Bible on the floor and accidently touching Darin’s arm and him flinching away from me. Like I would infect him with a virous. You just have no idea how completely frightening this is unless you have been there.
These memories make days like yesterday on the way to church and being at church together so crazy good…crazy crazy good!
This was the last song we sang in church yesterday, it is such a great song. As we began to sing this song Darin grabbed my hand and held it like he would never ever let it go!
I want you to know that we are praying for you! Sometimes when you are walking through a very dark trial it is very difficult to know how to pray and you find you have no energy to pray. I get that because I was there! So we are praying for you. We are believing for you. We are petitioning God on behalf of your family. We are reminding God of His promises! Lean into Jesus today! It is Jesus, the one who heals, who can deliver you. Press into Him! Don’t worry about your spouse, leave them in God’s very capable hands!
Isaiah 12:2
“Surely God is my salvation;
I will trust and not be afraid.
The Lord, the Lord, is my strength and my song;
he has become my salvation.”
We love you!
Jules